Do or Do Not

As I sit here by my new coffee table with my roommate (in his terribly stylish classes) sitting nearby while the two of us jam to Rachmaninoff's 2nd Piano Concerto, I am struck with how comfortable it has been to move to settle into California. For the weeks prior to my trip across the country, I stressed and worried a great deal about whether the transition would be smooth or bad enough to drive me to alcoholism, but it has turned out instead, to be a fairly comfortable trip albeit not without its slight problems. All of my concerns about the solitude, the adjustment, and the paranoia on losing my 1400 dollar laptop melted away in the face of good company, decent weather, and jetlag.

It's quite odd how adaptable we are sometimes, but in many ways, it is gratifying to know that the world can still surprise us; and to know that we can still surprise ourselves. Perhaps my years living on the East Coast have sufficiently embittered me enough with the sensibility of 'always right' confidence, but I am pleased that I still have the capacity to be mollified when I am wrong about something. Sitting here in a comfortable, plush environment with the music switching to the L'isle Joyeuse over an awesome sound system (that my roommate brought with him), I wonder why I was apprehensive at all.

It is no secret that I endorse thinking as the primary way to make decisions because foresight is arguably much better than Epimetheus, but there are times when action is also needed and the best course. To do something, in that split second of action much like that of a reaction reaching critical mass or a person's conviction hitting a certain level, is as necessary as it is to consider carefully the repercussions of those actions; to be sure, it is the moderate approach that is the most fruitful, neither extreme nor end. Thinking too much on any action will often result simply in more thinking and in the end, it is not the thinking that gets things done. Thinking only shows us the ways and hopefully, the best possible way.

Though I will posit myself always as a thinker first and a doer second, I can never disavow the utility of action. Even moreso, there are times when I am liable to fall into my own traps of circular analysis resulting in only a static perpetuation of the status quo; and it is in those times that I should hope to improve my person and become more proactive in changing things to what I believe they ought to be. It is not in my nature personally to oftentimes be so bold, but if anything else, it can only serve to usher in new types of experiences I have not yet encountered, and new things for me to learn.

Today is not rainy (does this place ever get rainy?) but it's warm, so I'm lazy. I should probably at some point change the name of my blog to 'Lazy when Sunny' to reflect my new environment.

Cheers.